Today we went to the Drs office. We saw you for the first time by ultrasound. We found your heart beat. Your dad was so moved, he said he felt like he could cry. Gladys and Denise were very excited for us. This visit was all good news, much better than our first ultrasound last time. Funny my heart still aches about my first pregnancy worried we will have bad news again. And motherhood still seems like something for other women. It almost feels like I am on the outside, watching all of this happen from a distance.